So I have been making up for my own sheer laziness in the past 24 hours, and that has ultimately resulted in the demise of any sleep. I did go to bed at midnight with the best intentions, but the pressure of deadlines that I have put on myself has inhabited my brain and so I couldn’t switch off.
So now, I’m sulkily nursing a flask of coffee that is too hot to drink, and I’m trying in vain to reap some kind of vapor benefits. And working at my desk, by working I of course mean writing this. .an act that will bring me no closer to finishing my work, and is only exhausting what remains of my brain power.
Have you ever felt so tired that you feel only half present in everything you do?
Oh well, I won’t learn from this, expect a string of similar posts next week 🙂
So it has been no secret that this week I have been working from my house at a new job. Or should I say I have been struggling to work from home.
This last week has felt like being back at university, where everything else is the most appealing task. I now have a pristine bedroom, and have lost a shocking amount of money via Amazon. Curse you online shopping.
So I thought I could make someone else feel good about their achievements this weekend by sharing a few pictures of my lack of them. You’ll notice the the general theme of anything-other-than-workness.. 🙂
So yesterday was an epic fail on my part. Come 6 o’clock I had a large glass of rose and the instant wave of happiness from that first cold sip was the decider that I am only a few public fuck ups away from being a 23 year old Bridget Jones.
I have had a slow start today, an undeserved lie-in. .a leisurely shower and well, I still haven’t done any work and its almost 2 pm. But. .there is still time for that! I have recently discovered the app ‘Evernote’, and whilst I think I may be incredibly slow to the table, I still am enjoying using it! I am one of those who gets so much joy from the planning, the list making. . highlighting, my god I love highlighting. It’s the task that I have spent three hours planning that I can’t be arsed taking on!
So with that reality looming, and taking on board that yesterday I did sweet FA. . I am going to make sure that today I definitely achieve at least two of things things off my latest Evernote list!
Right after food. . can’t think without food, so its all part of the task. . =)
I have a building amount of grown-up things I need to do. I got as far as changing into daytime clothing (which usually I wouldn’t do if I am going to be at home all day).. but I just can’t bring myself to do anything I need to do.
I just want to sulk and mope and be sad.
So, is it okay to call the day a write off and just watch shit tv all day? Or am I being an absolute fanny. . don’t answer that.
I am incredibly hungover today, having my best friend home from the Navy for 2 weeks is taking its toll on my liver. Can’t deny that dancing around the kitchen to Madness until the early hours wasn’t the unwinding I needed though! . . It has taken a good 5 minutes for me to write this much. . but Im hoping I can start the road to productivity by writing a blog post. My head doesn’t appreciate the effort.
. . it is now about 30 minutes later and I have literally been staring at the screen absolutely zombified. I had high hopes that I could begin my exercise today, that perhaps the hangover would drive me through a run without me realising quite what was happening. .but as I seem incapable of writing I doubt any running will be possible.
Mmm, I have so many things I need to do. None of which include the bath I am about to run and nap in 🙂
1. Clean my back garden (you dog lovers will know what this means, and by extension will know how undesirable it is, so by further extension will know how desperate not to do this dissertation I am)
2. Watch hours of pointless youtube videos
4. Refreshed me emails and Reader page countless times.
There must be other university folk on the WordPressSphere that can pass me some inspirational motivational wisdom. . .please?
The time to complete a good dissertation is running very low and I literally can’t make myself work. I know what needs to be done, yet procrastination win, even at this stage where it is imperative that I do actually do work. My laziness has gotten so bad that I couldn’t even be bothered to type this, but then procrastination from my dissertation caused me to see blogging in a whole new light!
I think Im broke.